Can you hear me?

As I hold your hand I thought about how many times I studied them, the shape, your fingers, your rings, the softness. I think about the mornings over a cup of coffee and a cigarette and watching how you held your cards while we played our thousandth game of gin rummy. I think about seeing […]

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The Vulnerability of Winter

This time of year makes me feel very vulnerable. The shorter days and longer nights make me vulnerable to more depression, sadness, internal unrest and fear. I have had this seasonal affective disorder since I was young and it isn’t improving with age. I find myself hiding under the covers in the mornings and crawling […]

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Life is to be lived…

I have a very difficult time remembering not to borrow trouble. I worry continually.  I worry about what might happen, what could happen, what will happen, what did happen, every single day and most often into my sleep.  I pray about what might, could, and will every day as well.  The idea that I am supposed […]

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