At 50 I found a Random Hair on my chin, I named her Veronica….
I can’t remember when Christmas time changed. I don’t remember when the anticipation and excitement about presents switched from priority to secondary. I don’t even know if presents even touch my radar this time of year. I do know that the celebration of Christmas is dramatically different for me now than it was when I […]
Read MoreMy goal this year was to rejoice on the 22nd and not to spend the day in sadness. Tomorrow it is the 4th year of my dad’s passing. I thought I would get up, dress up, go to a memorial for our friend we lost Wednesday and spend the rest of my day thinking about […]
Read MoreI am changed. I know this and I have been told this several times. I am not even close to the same person that I was in May 2016. I got sick and everything changed. The cool thing about this disease is that most days I don’t look sick! It makes people think that I […]
Read More……There lies the port: the vessel puffs her sail: There gloom the dark broad seas. My mariners, Souls that have toiled, and wrought, and thought with me – That ever with a frolic welcome took The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed Free hearts, free foreheads – you and I are old; Old age hath […]
Read MoreRecently I have had many friends that have required heart surgery to repair various issues. It rattled some thoughts in my head and I realized that I never seem to think of all of the mechanisms at work that keep my heart pumping. Beside the obvious and magnificent elements that created such a perfect organ […]
Read MoreTaking compliments is very difficult for me. I have no trouble giving compliments but for some reason I struggle accepting them. Last night during a class I’m taking we had to share an affirmation about every person in the class and in turn they say something positive to you. I have had my affirmations written […]
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I have been very open about my journey with depression and grief. I have answered all of the questions anyone has asked and I have tried to advocate for the “humane treatment” for depression! I have found that most often “pulling yourself up by the bootstraps” doesn’t work for clinical depression. Believe me, I’ve tried […]
Read MoreI remember distinctly when my dad’s best friend John turned 60. (I have written about him before) I cried and cried thinking that it was so old and I thought of all of the cruddy things about aging and how horrible it must be and how life was going to be over shortly!! I wove […]
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Harassment sometimes pronounced “Harris-ment” comes in all forms. Today the phone rings at least seven times at work only to hear “HELLO, DON’T HANG UP. YOUR GOOGLE ACCOUNT IS IN JEOPARDY.” So, I don’t hang up. I wait, wait, wait, “Please remove my number from your list please” I say. “Since you asked to be […]
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I have lived in the Heartland most of my life. I was born in the desert of Western Kansas and later moved to the Oklahoma/Kansas border. After I got married I moved to South Central Nebraska for 15 years and in 2005, back to the center of Kansas. While you will hear me often complain […]
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